You hurt me more than words could say
Left me wanting to die every single day
You left me in sadness & dispair..
Yet I'll still act like I never even cared

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Soo my parents arrive next week ... ahh that means i have to go to work .. GEEZ lol .. o well . Saw War of the world with like 10 friends today ... pretty awesome lol .. not bad i recomand it ... this summer seems sooo long.. but it's only been threeweeks ..whoa

*" LiE T0 ME " he said
" i love you " she whispered*

Do i trust my Mind, or just my Heart

Well i went to New York City ....and well no words can explain how much fun i had ...Talked to someone  she was greatperson to talk to got a phoneNumber... Hit her with my " I lost my number .. can i have yours? " ... hehe. But i have to say the Fireworks were amazing .. and my brother woke me up at 1: 00 am and we blasted my $200 firework stash ....am pretty sure we woke up everybody.

Please speak slowly
My heart is learning
Teach me heart-ache,
Stop this burning now.

You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you
And you had it all anyway

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Soo i went to New York City .. with a couble of Friends .. HOLY SHIZA... too much fun never spent soo much money in my life hehe. Then we went to China TOWN !!! ... lol it was my first time....Soo tomorrow .. when i wake up IF i wake up .. since it's like 12: something and it seems like i could go all night. So anyways me and my brother  are going to New York ciry again and SEEING the REAL fireworks... hehe.. wonder who i will meet...

I take back everything I've said
You wore those words on your lips
As if they meant anything anyway
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Your words are deadly weapons
Killing me, destroying me...

to LiVE is to love to L0VE is to feel to FEEL is to hurt to HURT is to lose to LOSE is to hate to HATE is to heal to HEAL is to change to CHANGE is to risk to RiSK is to love __________________________ Uhh well summer is going Great .. Allll alone .. hehe .. had some fun alrady ... staying late, LOUD music, chilling with friends. lol Sooo were the hell are you ? why don you get here soo we can " party " lol.. i COULD use the company.     ______________________________________ I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.  In case you failed to notice    In case you failed to see    This is my heart bleeding before you ..    This is me down on my knees</3

And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have
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Note to self i miss you terribly. This is what we call a tradgey. I can feel my mind warndering again

Ahh i been to two yankee games and they have been a blast. My parents are leaving to go to spain YES.. i stay alone hehe.. wonder what carzy things are gonna happen then.

I think I made it a game to play your game

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Can i be your memory ?